Thankfully, those days don't last too long, for me, so I'm trying to learn to make my way through them and know that tomorrow will bring new light, new opportunities and hopefully a new mindset.
Do you ever have those days?
Maybe someone hurt your feelings or maybe it was you who said something you shouldn't have. Or maybe you've spent too much time on Instagram and everyone else seems to have this picture-perfect life or house, and you're over here realizing you haven't dusted the furniture in a month, much less have anything picture worthy to show.
For me, I go through waves of feeling inadequate in several areas of life, and then the clouds will shift and life is all sunshiny again.
Sometimes I'm invincible and other times I will crumble at the slightest jab of sarcasm. I know that makes me sound like a mess, but most of the time I'm not. But every now and then, I am.
When I feel this way over a few days time, I start to wonder if it's a spiritual attack or just life. I go back and forth, asking the Lord to remove this veil of condemnation from my eyes, so I can see myself the way He does...valuable and worthy.
These are the days when I turn to my husband and God and pour out my insecurities and let them build me back up. And maybe that's the purpose of those days...to sit in the lap of my heavenly father and let him whisper in my ear that I'm loved. And to sit near my husband and have him reassure me that I'm doing a good job at all the roles I play.
After a day or so, I'll rise up, put my confidence back on and get on with my life - happy to serve, love, give, work and hopefully receive.
But, I'll look back with thankfulness that every now and then a mom is allowed to have a dip in the road and be the one to be lifted back up. Because she deserves to be loved and shown, the way she loves those around her.
So, here's to cloudy days. Without them, we wouldn't appreciate the sunny days half as much!
Until Next Time...
Blessings!
Sometimes we need cloudy days to make us appreciate those sunny ones. Here's to sunny days for you again. :)
ReplyDeleteI agree :) It's ok to have a few cloudy days now and then.
DeleteThis was such a beautiful reminder! I have days like this as well, some which are way worse than others. I try to remain quiet on those days...I talk to the Lord a lot, I read His word, I listen to worship music, I journal my thoughts out, or I start a gratitude list. It's so good to remember who He is and all that He has done. I do often see this kind of day as a spiritual attack, because the enemy is clever and sneaky at his job. I also often enlist the prayers of my best friend, because it's good to share when we struggle. I love the last sentence you wrote- without the cloudy days, we wouldn't appreciate the sunny ones. I love that! Thank you for sharing from your heart.
ReplyDeleteJennifer, thank you for sharing too. :)
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